January 2012
10 posts
forget you.
honestly im so done. im done with feeling insecure because you try to make it that way. im done with you trying to steal any piece of me i dare try to make original. im done with you always having to be right. im done with you copping that attitude and being a total bitch whenever youre not the center of attention. im done with you constantly comparing me to you. im done with you weaseling...
what hurts the most.
since when don’t you know me. since when are we this? i thought we were going to be something someday. im so confused. i lie, i lie to see if you know me enough to know the truth, u used to, i guess not anymore. how did we get here? im starting my awful cycle again where i run. I run when i think im gunna be left alone. I feel that right now. I feel alone. even when your with me its not how...
neither of us are perfect but heres the difference...
so the other thing i need to vent/rant about today is my “best friends”. this is how i can break it down for you real quick. My sister is my best friend. hands down. but that goes without saying so for my actually friends that ARENT biological lol my boyfriend was my best friend before we even started dating and he is more my best friend today than he was yesterday. But when im talking...
not seein that lovin you was what i was tryin to...
every day more and more disappears from his house. its like the world is slowly taking him from me and i cant do anything about it. It breaks my heart. i know i can be a pain in the butt to him, i know im pushy and stubborn. I just still find it so hard to believe that he really wants me. I am always testing him to make sure hes not just sticking around cuz he feels like he has to now. idk. maybe...
who says your not perfect?
everybody. i just feel like i can never be good enough. when im finally feeling like im beautiful i get torn down by something. even if its something random. honestly, i dont rly have a huge problem with my body. but when someone says something i find all the little things wrong with me and become crazy trying to fix it. i mean everything. and when i think i have a plan to fix all the things, i...
where is the love?
honestly sometimes i just think it would be easier to just have my parents be divorced. They never talk to eachother and the only time they do is when they are fighting. its like they r two people that dont get along that happen to live together. its so sad. they didnt used to be like this. i just cant stand it. im afraid of getting married someday to end up like that. they used to be so in love,...
how do we know if whats right is right?
honestly heres the thing. i cant even describe to you how close me and my boyfriend are. when i say hes my best friend i really mean that. I have other best friends, sure, but i get sick of them after a little while, they don’t completly get me, and the ones that do are too much like me for me to stand for too long. lol. but my boyfriend, he gets me. He really really understands who i am and...
lurking in the shadows with their lipgloss smiles...
ok so basically this is the only time i can rant about every girl who has ever been with or tried to be with my boy. the one in particular i cant stand is so fricken annoying. like im sorry but ugh! i dont like to seem like an over-jealous freak of a girl friend so i try not to talk about it but like she comes out of no where before me and him were dating, basically tries to steal him away WHILE...
and now we've come to this.
heres the truth, im so afraid. I try to pretend like im all put together, and even the times when i show that im not its not completely real. i just have so much ahead of me. last time i posted was junior year.. now its my senior year. I have five months until i will walk across that stage and everything will change forever. To be honest, im not even scared of graduating, or moving, or getting...
“my heart is set on you, i dont want no one else, and if you dont want me i guess...”
February 2011
2 posts
“I can sum up life in these three words… it goes on.”
no big deal.
you going to college? its junior year. so much has already happened. so many people have changed. what about me? im not sure yet. to be honest the whole moving on with your life thing has never really been my scene. its hard for me, i get so attached without even knowing it. how can i leave behind everything ive been so close with for so long? sure things have changed but never this much. go to...